
Sitting on the hood of our crashed car (notice the missing number plate (ripped off when the front of the car hit the embankment). Ankur is looking on... and we have an authentic TANK CROSSING in the background! 
Monday, February 27, 2006

Car crash on the A360 between Shrewton and Devizes. Thats the car I was travelling in with Ankur behind the wheel. The car spun out of control and crashed into the embankment (seen on the right side) and did a 180 degree turn to point back to the way we were coming from. The impact had enough force to push the car on top of the embankment. We were returning from Stonehenge. 
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Love: I ADMIT
Sometimes I feel dead. A bringer of death. Death itself.
I never thought Id find myself this close to you.
You know who you are.
If you search your mind you know who I am.
Every time I close my eyes.
I can see your face.
I do.
I see.
It drives me mad.
Searching.
Alone... always.
I know I have not been able to get into your heart but why!
Ive got to have your love.
I love you.
I LOVE YOU.
Added later: My love is like a nuclear reactor and alcohol is the coolant. But it does meltdown now and then like it did yesterday.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
India: Burning bright..
People say India is shining. That it has finally found its place in the world. I would say its burning. Burning brightly. Consuming itself as it burns.
India is not as strong as it seems. We are divided. Getting low on clean water and land to live on. Even though the population growth has shown some signs of slowing it is not happening fast enough. It is our sheer luck that just when we are facing our biggest challenges we find ourselves best able to face them. Confused?
Well while we are facing these problems our economy continues to boom. It is booming with a bang. Why? Because at this point in time the biggest chunk of our population is formed by young people. Economically productive young people. Young people being driven by values different from their forefathers. Fires of economic not political freedom burn in their hearts.
At this time of growth who has most to fear from us. Not our pesky neighbors. They can never challenge us on the economic front. There is only one country who has anything to fear. More specifically a set of people in that country. I am talking about the US of A and its top financial community. They have most to gain from keeping our country mired in problems both of political and economic nature. If India ever breaks free (as it is starting to now) they know that our population has the exact same drive the founders of America had.
We can challenge American superiority, if not on the military front, then most certainly on the economic front. What happens when from being call center slaves providing 'technical support' we become the thinking leaders of the world. When we give direction instead of taking it.
When an executive sitting in Mumbai decides what products should be sold in soothern California.
This is a nightmare scenario for the US. It is in their interest to keep us busy chasing after small things like a seat on the UN Security council and petty Nuclear deals. We should concentrate on ourselves so that we are ASKED to sit on the UN SC instead of going around begging members to allow us to sit on the UN SC.
I think if we look into the heart of the current world affairs we will find that it is in US interest to have middle east, Kashmir and other such sensitive regions as flashpoints for conflict.
Take away the wasted resources being pumped into Kashmir what do you get? India with extra money for development (even after bribes!). Take away the conflict in Iraq what do you get? A massive oil exporting country which is not dominated by US policy (thats why they had to get rid of Saddam). Remove the Israeli-Palestinian conflict and what do you get? The removal of US influence in that region as the main peacekeeper (thus loosing influence).
Let us not forget this fact of life even as we work for US companies. After all subjugation is just one step away from rebellion...
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Another girl just called me mad!
maVen says:
girls are supposed to be dumb
maVen says:
hahahaha
maVen says:
- when it comes to guys
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
that's your individual con tation about girls.. so i can t comment on that
maVen says:
hahahah no actually im just expressing a popular opinion
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
very funny
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
maVen says:
backed up by years of first hand experience
maVen says:
and several case studies
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
case studies
maVen says:
maVen says:
hahahahaha
¿¯Må\/€®î©k ¯¿ says:
ur mad
maVen says:
THANKS!
Well it seems to be the popular opinion among girls that I am mad!
:D
Conversations with the Blossom (contd.)
honey_blossom0: she looks like my cousin jamie
XY: who smruthy?
honey_blossom0: yes
honey_blossom0: your smruthy
honey_blossom0: lol
XY: hahahahahaha
XY: hahahahahahhaha
honey_blossom0: lol
XY: thats what i like about u
XY: u perform open heart surgery without knocking the patient out
There she goes teasing me again.
:)
Honey is a gem.. I just dont know what kind yet.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Friday, February 17, 2006
A day of reckoning...

This is what I was feeling like all day Wednesday (15th Feb. 2006). It was a day I was put under so much pressure and yet managed to survive and fight the pressure (without have a heart attack or totally loosing my sanity. I managed to over come it.
People think just because you are a PhD STUDENT life is cool. No its not so. In a PhD its worse.
In an office you will have (if you are lucky) just a few bad days at work. In a PhD you will definitely have only a very few bad days at work (most of the bad days occour when you are on your own!).
But those very few bad days squeeze all the hurt into one tiny pill which you end up eating. It is a killer day. If you survive you learn something.
This time I learned to trust myself. That I am not as weak as I think I am. Also I learnt not to have blind faith in myself. Because I am also not as invincible as I think I am.
God and good luck can only provide you with limited help.
:)
A.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Friday, February 10, 2006
Kanishka
23rd June 1985. A calm Sunday morning over the north Atlantic.
Over Ireland an Air India flight (AI-182) was making its way towards London followed by a TWA flight.
Most people don't know what happened next. The name of the AI plane was Kanishka.
Still don't know what happened next?
Sometime around 7:14 GMT a bomb in the luggage hold of the AI plane exploded. All 329 passengers on board died. Some died as the plane broke up at 31,000 feet others fell with the mangled remains of AI 182 into the sea where they drowned. I can't imagine the terror finding yourself falling from a burning aircraft when moments ago you were enjoying a Hindi movie in the comfort of the aircraft cabin.
Check out this excellent website: http://www.flight182.com/index.htm
Terrorists. They killed 329 innocent people. Why? Just because they wanted an independent state? It is pathetic. Independence doesn't come by killing innocent people. It comes when you are ready to sacrifice yourself before others. It doesn't come by destroying life. It comes by making sure that YOUR life has a meaning.
They should make a movie on the 329 martyrs. They made sure Punjab is a part of India and that there is peace. Sacrifice... that is the key.














