Mariana in the Moated Grange by Sir John Everett Millais, 1829-1896 
2. In darkness and secure, By the secret ladder, disguised—oh,
happy chance!—
In darkness and in concealment, My house being now at rest.
3. In the happy night, In secret, when none saw me,
Nor I beheld aught, Without light or guide, save that which
burned in my heart.

-- Dark Night of the Soul by Saint John of the Cross

Smile!

There is only one difference between Marriage and War..
In a marriage you get to sleep with your enemy at night.. ;)

Me.. and Shy!

Some words of wisdom from a friend:
Arti says:
u very straigh fwd but shy
Arti says:
n jokes apart
Arti says:
being staright fwd does not mean
Arti says:
u say everythg thts in ur mins thts not relevant to the situation

Again.. this is most amazing and funny.. esp. the last line.

Four of Disks from the Thoth Tarot Deck.. representing the Security Structure...  

This card describes my life perfectly. 

Turning my back on home and hearth...
rejecting everything nice...
on a lonely journey of life..
"Miles to go before I sleep"

Excellent Quote!

To dare to live alone is the rarest courage; since there are many who had rather meet their bitterest enemy in the field, than their own hearts in their closet.

- Charles Caleb Colton

Vanilla Sky...

Today/Yesterday saw Vanilla Sky. It is one of the best movies I have ever seen.
Right next to 12 Monkeys.
"I will tell you in another life, when we are both cats"
Man thats so profound! Who comes up with stuff like that? That person surely has a non-linear thinking process.
Just when life couldnt get worse.. you see a movie like Vanilla Sky and it makes you feel strange.
It is all very very strange.
:)


"We are afraid to live, but scared to die"
- Inderpal Bahra

Ancient Egyptians believed that upon death they would be asked two questions and their answers would determine whether they could continue their journey in the afterlife. The first question was, "Did you bring joy?" The second was, "Did you find joy?"
-Leo Buscaglia

Q1: Did I bring joy? -> Id like to think I did.
Q2: Did I find joy? -> Too bad I cant lie.
:)

Me, Rawat and Raj (Right to Left) 

Choices..

Everyone always has two choices.. just two choices.
You might have 10 choices in front of you but they can always be neatly divided into the basic two choices.
The high path or the low path. Facing a problem or running away...
both choices have equal merit. Sometimes the desperation levels are so high that running away is the only logical choice one has.
At other times running away is the last thing on our minds.
What truly decides it for us is the fact that how attachted are we to the answer to the question that has put the choices before us.

Whatever talk we may generate about the choices... in the end it comes down to the two.
There is no escaping it. No hiding from it. The only reason we get confused is because we try and confuse ourselves by inventing more choices than their are. Maybe we dont want to face the hard truth that our options are limited. But this confusion leads to more anguish than accepting the hard truth.

So as the poem from Robert Frost says..
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

Maybe by facing the two choices we can make a difference.

Azahar Machwe
27th March 2005