Love: I ADMIT

Sometimes I feel dead. A bringer of death. Death itself.
I never thought Id find myself this close to you.
You know who you are.

If you search your mind you know who I am.
Every time I close my eyes.
I can see your face.
I do.
I see.
It drives me mad.
Searching.
Alone... always.
I know I have not been able to get into your heart but why!
Ive got to have your love.
I love you.

I LOVE YOU.

Added later: My love is like a nuclear reactor and alcohol is the coolant. But it does meltdown now and then like it did yesterday.